Farewell Huesca

Today is my last day in Huesca. It's been a week but time has gone so quickly it seemed less time. I'm gonna miss the cold, the ice, the snow, my mother, my sister, Musa XDDD her bites, her scratches XDDDDDD no, that last two things absolutely NO. I agree she's the most beautiful black kitten I've ever seen, somehow panther like, but she behaves like that. Definitely I'm not gonna miss her over sized claws.




At least Elsa came. On Saturday evening she arrived deadly tired and carrying a desperate kitten with her XDD a trip from Madrid with an hyperactive cat... guess how she felt.

On Sunday she still was sleeping when my mother and I went to Biota to see my grandparents. We just stayed for lunch: morning and part of the afternoon. Weather at dusk worsens, so we had to come back early. I really miss them a lot, so I'm very sad, I'd have liked to stay more time (on the other hand there wasn't heating on the house, so it could have been my last night....... ^^U)


Now I'm preparing my suitcase for tomorrow, though it's still early, but I'm afraid I'll forget something xDDD it rarely happens, but my head is everywhere else but here now. I'm sad for leaving.
Tomorrow I'll see David again, and the sorrow will lessen. Hopefully... you can deduce I'm not the most sociable person when I'm sad.



And just 2 days to go: 2009 it's almost here and David and I have absolutely not whatsoever plans for the night of the 31st of December. Pathetic ¬¬U thank his friends.


Tomorrow I'll write some more, now I'm a little apathetic -__-




Ps: I have to finish and upload the mother fucking stylists work today. Somebody please, murder her as cruelly as possible. For our sake. Thank you.

Xmas 2nd try

After some cold, freezing foggy days, we've woke up with sun. Though cold. Almost 1ºC, wow xDD.

Yesterday wasn't the typical xmas day, because my family wasn't together, we couldn't go to Biota (see previous post) and my sister had to work so she stayed in Madrid. So my mother and I decided to keep the day as any other day. Nothing special. And planned for a weekend trip.


As I said, today we woke up with sun. But now is cloudy, and windy. I think it's gonna rain soon. I prefer snow and frost _o_


It's not been decided yet if we'll go today to Biota, we're delaying the trip on purpose on thoughts of my sister to come this Saturday and then go the three of us. We will see.



I'm missing you very much, I think of you every day. Please, don't worry prematurely, everything that must be talked about will be once we're together. I DO also love you. But please, keep your heart inside your chest ^^UUUUU thank you xDDD



Ps: I still haven't received any presents. I'm the one that waits until the 6th of January XD but I'm very pleased with my early xmas present :333 thanx my love.

Ps2: new pictures! they're cold! XDDD

xmas 1st try

And now, pictures of the day:



































1ª intentona de ir a Biota a pasar las navidades frustrada. Razón: Nieve + escarcha + hielo + niebla + -3ºC + el coche literalmente helado = a sal tu si tienes cojones.

1st try to go on Xmas to Biota becomes failure. Because: snow + frost + ice + fog + -3ºC + the car was literally frozen = go if you're brave enough, just try.

El ‘gatocaja’ or Box-Cat xD [EDIT]

Gaticos....
Kittens....

Now DARE to say the are not LOVELY. Just DARE.....











And I'll happily kill you :3333





Yesterday at the bus station:
ME: Mom I'm LITERALLY freezing!
MOM: Stop whining! It's not SO cold.
temperature in the street, 4 p.m. : -2ºC + fog + frost
ME: ¬¬UUUU Mom...
MOM: Just shut up and buy a better coat.




.... _o_ she's dead right about this xDDD




Ps: video from Todo Principio Tiene Un Final




[EDIT]
Today, 12 p.m











yep, it's COLD.

time for a xmas excuse

So I’ll start apologising for being missing for almost a month. Sorry. I truly wasn’t inspired _O_


Since David went to Madrid to work I’m just existing… life is boring without him.


Now, I’m gonna introduce you my advanced xmas present: my lotus code!! A present from David :___3333 it’s really expensive, but I love it. Though I feel very guilty T^T what the heck am I gonna give him for xmas!?!?!?



Also, about the Twilight movie:
Ok, that’s very disconcerting…. I’ve not gone watch it yet, but I have two opposed opinions about it.
First my sister-in-law xDDDD Ana, that just after watching it, call me to my mobile phone.
ANA: Hi Pao, have you already seen Twilight?
ME: no, not yet, but…
ANA: For G-d’s sake, DON’T GO!!!

And after it, all the explanation and motives of why not to go. She kinda convinced me, nearly 90%. Ok, almost totally. I decided not to go xDDDDD for now. I want to see it in English first, if possible.

Second, my sister, Elsa. She also called me after watching it. She was really excited ^^U
ELSA: Pao!!! Guess what I’ve just watched in the cinema!!
Me: Ehhh…. Twilight? (dunno how I guessed it XD)
ELSA: YESSSSSSSS!! I totally LOVED it!!!!!!!
ME: Like FUCKING WHAT!!!?
ELSA: it’s been amazing!!!
ME: …. Did he fly?
ELSA: oh… I seemed like, but I can’t really say if he just could jump 40 meters of fly. Why?
ME: … doesn’t matter.


Now I’m lost XD There are two ¡films I want to watch, but about Twilight I’m really confused. What would you do? PLEASE, comment and tell me your reviews, because it seems that people who haven’t read the book (aka ELSA) loved it O_o



And now, I’m saying farewell XD
Not really, just going to Huesca for xmas. I miss my mom, and my sister ^^ and my mother’s family XDDD and snow…. And David. But that’s a little bit complicated.

So have a nice xmas and get lots of cool presents. See you in my next post (hopefully still this year XDDDD)

Ksssssss


Ps: I finished my classes!!!! YAHOOOOO XD

I'll pretend to hug

David's finally gone to Madrid to work.
...
I'm already missing you.

Come back soon, though soon is not enough.
I love you so much.





Kisses my love :333

Grimilla

A mi no me jodas, no sé por qué pero este gato me da grimilla...

Fuck it, I dunno why but this cat gives me jitters...







On other order of things, today is the premiere of Twilight the movie ^^UUU I'm still having my doubts on it, I dunno whether I'll go to watch it today, this weekend.... will I ever be bold enough to risk my wonderful pov of the books??
I need a cup of absent... xDDD


Richmond: Do you have absent?
Jen: No, no I don't
Richmond: Oh, I only drink absent
Jen: Carlsberg, wine...
Richmond Oh, Carlsberg will be fine
Jen: ...

The IT Crowd, 2nd season chapter 4 The Dinner Party





Ps: Peter File XD just say it....
Ps2: Sometimes I swear I wish I knew a little bit more about computing, kinda IT Crowd XD or at least be able to learn without having to ask about every computing joke to my bfriend David ^^U because I KNOW I'm missing important details in this jokes/puns that are very funny, and I h8 it!! -___-U

My career is worthless from the academic and former-job-to-get pov....





Ps3: is not what you say, is how you say it; in your case is both, is what you say because is a cruel joke, and how you say it because though it might seem innocent implies way more than what you say.

Wrong-Bad? Good... Right?

~First things first:

Happy Anniversary my lova!! 6 years and 5 months ^_^

Also today is a good day because you're not going to Madrid tomorrow.

But is bad because I should have gone to Huesca tmorrow (and I'm not = my mother will kill me)

Also is good because we can spend more time together

Though is bad because today I had an exam (...ahem...) and I'll have to studay way more to do it next day ^^U I hope for.

It's also bad because you'll go to Madrid on Monday evening... and we'll see each other only on weekends






Right: I SHOULD be happy for you (I'm)
Wrong: ........ I'll miss you :_____33





Ps: Good! We'll see together Twilight!! *_*
Bad....... ? ^^UUUUUUU

Random-ess

This is gonna be a totally random-ess XD because as always since a while I wanted to keep this blog updated but I had NOTHING interesting to post ¬¬ fuck my life, it was cooler when I was all the time suicidal and depressed XDDDDD at least I could write nightmares and people commented about my health and metal state and not about whatsoever I could write now in randomness _o_ my life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Em... as this is a (quoting myself) totally random post, don't hope for a tidy structure of facts. Yep, I made my Genre & Sex exam and checked I'm useless learning things just by memorising. At least I could remember one of the longest names of a French feminist but I ended up writing it upside down ¬¬UUUUUUU negative criticism allowed, thank you.

Also, I'm stuck at home because it's mostly raining and I h8 half things XDDD or rains or it doesn't, but no 4 drops of rain, then 10 minutes without a drop, and then rain again. Absolutely no, you cannot trust heavens!! XD I h8 having to use the umbrella for 5 fucking minutes, then fold it soaked and then open it again ¬¬ totally like NO.
And so I'm sooooo bored I started watching IT Crowd again, and then Naruto XD after weeks only reading the manga the only thing I can say it's almost the same that with Meitantei Conan: worthless. Because manga is way further from anime chapters and you'll only see what you read weeks before. Totally loss of time. Animation sometimes sucks (except for H........... neko-ecchi XDDD)

Then I remembered 2 things (well, lot more, but I ain't gonna tell you everything now, randomness remember, not tidy post) first, there's a new IT Crowd season being aired at the moment, so I tried to find it on the internet (youtube, seriesyonkis, etc) I found it. But only first chapter; so I decided to wait until I could watch it with David ^^
Second.... Naruto Randomness!!!!!! I swear is fucking amazing, people! Only warn you not to see it unless you wanna see shippuden spoilers. BTW, they'll only be spoilers if you're either following the series in the anime or reading the spanish manga... if you're following the onemanga.com naruto's uploads, then there will be no problem ^^


I say that because.... I'm gonna post naruto's randomness!! It's crazy, you're gonna love it XD

Spoilers ahead xD




Kisses




Ps: comments PLEASE! even if you don't like manga, c'mon!!
Ps2: you can always check Fiory's page to see more videos, but you can also wait for me to post them so you can comment... please? XDDD

Cancer (the horrorscope's return)

Honestly....... WTF??

Semana 23/11/2008 - 29/11/2008

Amor: Nuevas personas entran en su vida, y sentimentalmente se sentirá atraído por la novedad. Puede que no se dé cuenta, pero lo que desea afectivamente lo tiene a su lado.



¬¬UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU



stupid post, I'm studying English Grammar, don't ask me for coherence, I lost it about an hour ago _O_



Ps: I don't believe in horoscopes but this one I found use to tell me the freakiest things ever, so I hope is not just me, please check it XD related to love it amazes me sometimes, but related to health most of the times scares me to death!!! issues like weight and eating habits are surprisingly accurate ¬¬ Are we cancer SO predictable??

Ps2: yesterday's movie was............. ok, McDonald's was......... OK, night was cold and Sandra was as charming as always :3333 love you pretty!! see you tomorrow in Grammar test T^T why, oh why!????


....
.......
...........♥? xDDD



Ps3: That's a warning! XD if you don't post a comment in the next week I swear for my future dollfie I'll close this!!!!!! indefinitely!!!!

Cookies?

*cof,cof, Garfield fan xDD hum!*


みんあさんおげんきですか

Here I'm again, give all a nice welcome to my newest reader (and possible commentator xDD), Clive! I hope your positive criticism helps me driving this blog to success XD otherwise you'll be banned *evil laugh* (using people, oh!)

After some umm not-so-nice posts about paranoia which possibly made me even more an outcast in the blogger world, I decided trying sth different: monologues XDDDD no, not today, maybe when I got some inspiration out of the blue ^^U

For now you'll have to wait for more interesting things --hey!! come back!!!!! T^T
This evening I'm gonna to the theatre with David, Sandra and her boyfriend to watch J.B. XDDDD please, PLEASE, for my sanity don't ask me what J.B. means, and no, unfortunately it isn't whisky -_-U

This week has been a little bit like hell. David went to Madrid to do some job interviews, and when he came back 2 days later he had a very VERY good offer on a multinational. Pros: a multinational! and money. Cons: Staying at Madrid. For as long as he worked there, indefinitely.
.... we talked, and talked, we revised pros and cons, talked about our relationship and how much we wanted to stay together... and finally we decided for him to stay. I think he regrets in part, but on the other hand, going to Madrid, starting living there, renting a flat....... ok, there were lots of cons apart from the personal reasons. So now, he stays the same that before the interviews, looking for a job. I wish him luck (in Vlc ^^U)

Today also starts here the Jornadas de Manga y Anime in the Greenspace... I'm not going, but if David reads this, I've got a message for him: pic the pictures we took in Bcn almost a month ago and give them to me. I WANT them ¬¬
Also, Neru, Rakel, Miri and Natalia, have a nice day there, take lots of pictures, I hope on Monday we can see each other pictures ^^



Ok, not really much else to tell, for now XD
comments, suggestions, criticism!??? PLEASE!! I'll do ALMOST anything ^^U


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Ps: I miss JAC :______333
Ps2: Yesterday was the Twilight Premiere in USA!!! (why so excited? _O_)

see you soon...

Already missing you, come back asap ^__^



Ps: Dvd is in Madrid, getting interviewed for a job.
Should I wish him good luck?? XDDD
I don't want him to go, No Way I want him to stay!!!! T^T



... love you :33



Ps2: tomorrow exam ¬¬ h8ing stylistics with all my being.
Ps3: wish me luck, 3rd card to get a VC! _O_

Limbo state

This as strange as it sounds is the most reliable explanation you'll get if you ask me where the hell I've been this past two weeks. Yep, in the limbo; lacking empathy some days and falling into a downward spiral of despair and guilt the others.


... my personal life is not complicated; it's a chaos.

To start with I must explain briefly what led to that state of permanent change:
First I wanted space between David and I, just a little time to live apart after two years of living together totally overwhelmed and stressed over the matter of compromise. That happened almost 3 weeks ago.
And now that things are finally settled, that after anguishes, pain, cries and long, long honest talks about our feelings we met a point of agreement in living apart but staying together, the odds plot against us: There is a certain possibility of David getting a job in Madrid. And I don't want him to go.
I don't know what's wrong with my head, sometimes I'm not empathic at all, I feel like I was in a limbo, separated from the rest of the people, only concentrated in my own pain, which I assure you is enough for the day. I don't want him to go, but I don't want him to stay just because of me, just because of what happened. I don't want him to fear.

I know what I feel. I know what he feels. What I don't know is why the hell I'm not going to the psycho and try to fix my fuck*ng bipolarity ¬¬ its really annoying.



Ps: I'm not making it up, I'm bipolar for real. And lots of other things XD I've had a complicated life, some day I'll tell you..
Ps2: I don't want him to go!!!!!!!!!!
Ps3: yesterday we went out at night for "partying"...................... XD ok, not really, but it was fun.
(it was cold _O_)

The Week

So many things and too little time to write them xDDDD

Here I'm again, to write a chronicle of my past week... yes, I'm gettin' used to write things after they'd happen ¬¬U I have lots to do usually.

Finally I went to the Saló del manga y Anime de Bcn *__* the trip by car in the same day was just hell... we were so tired and it rained so much at night I was scared, poor Khellendros XD but THANKS for driving ^^ It was amazing! so many people, cosplays, merchandising, Japaneses XD I'm really grateful for this. We really had a very nice day (we ended up deadly tired but it was worthy, at least it was for me XDDD)

That happened on Saturday; on Sunday David and I went to celebrate my Father's B-day with my sister and my grandma. We ate paella and luckily it didn't rain XD After this David and I stayed at home, h8ed Glock ¬¬UU h8 Hamilton XD and after this craziness that is the F1, went to the Medieval Fair that was closing this weekend.

Sita came on Tuesday 28 to Valencia, leaving her kitten with my mother and as consequence, missing her like hell (the kitten XDDD I mean); my mother will throw her anytime through the window (the kitten! XD She's very playful ^^U) She's staying here until next weekend (hopefully).




And...




In the personal field I have to say this last week has been pretty complicated, mostly painful and difficult. I'm not gonna give any details here, I deserve privacy at least here, my very close friends know what I'm talking about, and for the rest Need Not To Know.
BTW some things aren't gonna change, and though there ha been some changes in our living, we're together, and there's no way in time near for that to change; been this like that, I have to say:

♥ Happy 6 years & 4 months anniversary ♥

See you soon, lots of things more to tell, loads of pictures to upload, and painful marks to be ashamed of XDDD


Ps: I failed my 2 last exams.... genre and sex, and translation.... I don't fucking know WHY ¬¬
Ps2: This week I have 2 more exams, one of them I knew last Friday, happiness! ¬¬UUUU
Ps3: portfolio....... _O_
Ps4: how many trailers have they uploaded from Twilight The Movie?!?! We've seen nearly half of the movie XD (... to watch, not to watch,to watch, not to watch,to watch, not to watch....)
Ps5: I saw Deed
on Saturday in the Saló ^3^ I couldn't say anything because I'm nerdy shy -__-UUU But I liked her Bleach cosplay ^^ they were taking pictures with other bleach cosplayers.

JFYI

Hello guys & gals, nice to see u again ¬¬ oh, the irony...

After a week I'm here again, just prepared to write quite a nonsense that nobody will comment --I'm not that sure 'bout who's reading, but if there's nothing good to say, better not to ^^U I agree with this... I'LL DIE ALONE! XDDD


Seems going to places nowadays it's even more difficult than we thought it was, everything conspires to let us down... first Ryanair fucks off my friends and cancels the tickets they bought to Spain on Xmas. Not only these, but also the tickets to come back after the Erasmus ¬¬ seems it wasn't profitable to flight VLC-LND anymore. Great, not only they dunno how to come back, but also they'll have to be refunded and we --the friends, are unable to go see them unless we take at least two flights. Yeah, capitalism sucks XDDDD

Bcn seems to be every day further away ^^UUUU no money, no friends?! WTF? I renounced to my cosplay, for G-d's sake, but I still wanna go! I'ts friki day! I'ts a MUST to all Otakus, I won't be young for too long, I have to cosplay while I can and it doesn't seem ridiculous XDDD

Neru, Miri, Raxel, Nat THANX for inviting me to the emo meeting this Sat, sorry for not being able to go _O_ that's also a MUST!! XD more days than sausages, we'll meet this week --yes, it seems no one is able to go to Bcn this year... _._u


Twilight The Movie is near! muahahaha we're ALL gonna DIE!!!!!!!!! :__33333 afraid.....



Em... a week since I was stupid .__.u



petonets!


Ps: dark side=cookies
Ps2: reading week!!!
Ps3: stlylistics........... _O_UUUUU
Psp: NDS
... que malo...

Cancer (o cómo los horóscopos dan por culo a veces)

Hola mis pequeños moradores. pequeños, ínfimos, despreciables vagos que leéis y no comentáis o que lleváis días sin pasar por aquí, malditos.... *inspira, espira* Vale. Este post, menos denso, es porque me aburro, me levanto demasiado pronto para mis clases y al encender el pc, no tengo correos. Así que me dedico a pasearme XD Y a veces encuntro cositas curiosas.

Soy lo menos espiritual que te puedas echar a la cara, eso de primeras. No creo en mundos superiores o inferiores, hace un tiempo estuve en una época de idealismo budístico y tal, y mucho antes me hicieron comulgar ¬¬U Ahora soy plenamente consciente de que fue un error. Bien, eso me lleva a no creer en la gente que tira las piedras/hojas/conchas/cartas/dados/huesos?? y etc a un tapete para averiguar tu futuro o decirte tu pasado -- "oh, estás casada, a que sí?" y la gente n plan "cómo lo sabes?" POR TU ANILLO!!!!! ¬¬ gente crédula, ejem.
Pero de vez en cuando encuentras cosas que no por haber sido dichas al azar (y con más cuento que calleja) dejan de sorprenderte. Como el gran número de coincidencias que puede tener contigo un estúpido horóscopo.

Esta entrada en el blog de Trev (por favor, no dejéis de leerla, es genial, como todo lo que escribe este tio) me llama poderosamente la atención porque yo también soy cancer. Y porque asusta lo parecida que soy a esa maldita descrición, aunque con salvedades y tal, como dijo un filósofo "yo soy yo y mis circunstancias/experiencias". Pero si es cierto que me parezco a esa descripción... es como esos horóscopos del periódico gratuito que lees por las mañanas antes de entrar a clase, que son lo último que miras por curiosidad y a veces te partes el culo y otras te quedas de hielo, en plan "vale... haches de pe, dónde está la cámara?"

Esta es la descripción en cuestión:
EL MAS SORPRENDERTE DE LOS BESADORES. Gran atractivo en su personalidad. Su amor es único. Muy romántico. La persona más cariñosa que conocerás!
Totalmente creativo, imaginativo y soñador. Meditabundo. Con la mente siempre en el aire y un paso más allá. Extremadamente aleatorio y cambiante (y orgulloso de ser así). Freak. Espontáneo. Contador de grandes historias. Extremadamente tímido y cerrado. No es un para nada un luchador, pero de seguro te dejará inconsciente si tiene que hacerlo. Alguien de quien te aferrarías.

El carácter de un cáncer es el menos claro de todos los signos del zodiaco. Un cáncer puede ser desde tímido y aburrido hasta brillante y famoso. La casa de un Cáncer tiende a ser su refugio personal más que un escaparate para deslumbrar a los demás. Un cáncer entiende que hay momentos para ser sociable y otros momentos para ser solitario. Esto es una de las contradicciones en su carácter. Desde fuera parecen decididos, resistentes, tercos, tenaces, energéticos, sabios y intuitivos. No obstante los que les conocen desde la intimidad pueden ver un tipo de persona totalmente distinto - alguien sensible sobre todo hacia las personas a las que quiere. Los cáncer saben identificarse con la situación de los demás por su gran capacidad imaginativa. A veces son demasiados fantasiosos y pretenden construir su vida según un ideal romántico. Les gusta el arte, la música y la literatura y, sobre todo, los artes dramáticos y la acción. Un cáncer tiene una memoria excelente, sobre todo por acontecimientos personales y recuerdos de su infancia que son capaces de recordar al máximo detalle. Los cáncer viven condicionados por sus recuerdos del pasado y por su imaginación del futuro.

El signo cáncer tiene muchos defectos potenciales. Pueden tener tendencia hacia un desorden, un complejo de inferioridad. Se sienten aludidos con frecuencia, y muchas veces por causas imaginadas sin fundamento real, y les gustan demasiado los halagos de los demás. Son ambiciosos. Pueden cambiar sin dificultad profesión, lealtades e incluso su opinión sobre las personas.
En sus relaciones personales los cáncer son una mezcla de duro y blando. En la vida real y en su matrimonio su amor es intensamente leal. Aunque tengan relaciones fuera de su pareja (lo que es muy posible porque los cáncer están abiertos a la excitación sensual), su primera lealtad está con su familia porque se consideran su protector. De todas maneras, los cáncer quieren sin reservas y no dudan en dejar todo por amor. También son amigos leales de sus amigos.

Y ahora un trozo del horóscopo del iGoogle XD que también asusta por su estadística de aciertos/aproximaciones a lo que será mi semana ^^UUUUU

Semana 19/10/2008 - 25/10/2008
Amor: El amor se convertirá en algo importante y despertará su necesidad de recibir y entregar afecto. La inseguridad podría afectar el futuro de sus relaciones. Amores distantes.






....pues eso ^^U me voy pa clase.
Xauuu!!




Pd: si, este post en castellano, qué? _o_

Survival

Yes, I survived to the rain, I made it through the wilderness XDDDDD more or less, I got a cold some days ago, and I'm still recovering *snif*, and yes, I survived to the almost-6-hours-long-trip by train to Huesca to see my mother the 9th --avoiding the 9 d'octubre in Vlc, not because I couldn't care less by that kind of things, but because it rained like hell. I barely survived, though, to the a/c in the train, to the massive amount of travelers we were in, and also, to the smell of some people that unknown what a shower is. After it, I stayed in Huesca till October the 12th, and got the train at 7 a.m., avoiding whatever news about the archaic military demonstration that happens every 12th of October.


That alone could resume the chronicles of my long weekend, but survival is more than a two-way ticket to hell XD Today I discovered I'll survive to the second thing I fear the most (obviously, gaining weight is 1st place): getting old. Yes, I'm immune to aging XD today I met Myriam, Natalia, Nerea and Rakel; this 4 girls, which I didn't remember until today, recognised me from the Saló del Manga y Anime de Vlc, and afterwards I sat with them and we talked about Twilight the movie, the books, manga and anime, about going to the Saló de Bcn... but before all this things, when they saw me, and we started to chat, the asked me which career I was in, and after knowing we were doing the same, which year I was in. That is the climax moment: they thought I was in 2nd year! I'M IN 5TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 22 years, I almost considered myself too old to even go on cosplay!! And they told me I didn't resemble a 22-year-old girl.

*HA-PPY* :33333333333~~~

...
I'd feel like flying were not because it's almost certain I'll not go to the Saló of Bcn T^T mainly because:
1st-no money;
2nd-nowhere to stay;
3rd-no cosplay; &
4th-no people to go with (though this 4 girls are going, so that's not true at all...)



Ok, 4th week of classes. Today I have an exam to do. No idea how to do it. Expectatives of failing: 70%
Rain expected for today: 95% of possibilities...


also... 4th week without [JAC]. I miss you :__3



Nothing else to say. I don't like Movie-Edward. I don't like movie-Bella. I don't like Bella XDDDDDD I don't like most of the cast!!!!!!!! And today I saw it promoted on A3 for the 1st time!! I don't dislike dubbers, but if possible, I'd like to see it in OV (if I had the guts to see sth that can ruin my mental image of the characters in the book and the book itself ¬¬U)


ps: why, oh why on earth the didn't fix right Edward's hair!?!?!?!? T^T he wouldn't ever comb his hair like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cuttest Cat EVER

just a post to confirm the evidence: Cuttest things happen :333333~~~




*O*


...and sometimes happen to be bad-tempered *.*U



かわいい~~！！！

Reflejos --la pérdida de la pasta XD

Press Play XD (to create some atmosphere... ^^U)


Bienvenidos al Programa de Cine de Bloodberry! (suena movierecord XDDDD espero)


Hoy el post será en español. Por qué? Porque me aburro XD y así mola más, que el vídeo de Ángel está también en castellano XDD :3333 Ángeeeeel...

La película de la que quiero hablar hoy es:
Refl3jos --la vi ayer.

Y qué hay que decir de esta película?

Que es mala de cojones. Ale, ya'ta.
... pero mala, mala, mala (me da lo mismo lo que diga Dvd, es MUY mala ¬¬ todos sabemos que el de 24 solo sirve para 24 XD su actuación es comparable a la de las tetas de la mujer, siempre visibles, pero innecesarias XDD)

Va, que no os gastéis la pasta en eso, a menos que;
1.Tengáis la pasta
2.Os mole la sangre sin sentido y las muertes RARAS ¬¬U lo digo en serio, sin sentido alguno, al menos en otras pelis era un psicópata, la gente había hecho alguna cosilla malilla, pero aquí NADA. Oh, pero si resulta que todo era culpa del -SPOILER- XD eso.
3.Queráis ver al niño-mutante-ojos de bicho. En serio, no podían haber encontrado a un espacimen más alejado cromosómicamente de sus padres, verdad? Una foto del crio en cuestión (y no, NO es mono, os juro que da grimilla ^^U WTF....)


Un beso, see you in the next post :3



Pd: el programa de cine de Ángel Martín!!!!!!!!!!! :3333333333333333333

...And leave the rest to time

6 years & 3 months

Ps: not in the best time to celebrate, but good nevertheless, I'm still happy with you, I trust to fate. Whatever.

Dying or dyeing??

Hey hey heyyyyy my hair is BLACK!!!!!!!!!!






But....

:_____________333 happiness is not full;

David has stopped speaking to me.... T^T


PS: but u know, I'm TOO fed up with this, with ME not doing WHAT I WANT just because I FEAR HIM being ANGRY/DISAPPOINTED with me. Like today ¬¬UUUUUU







On other order of thingsssss
This song is unbelievable right for today's situation ^^UUUU it fits what I feel right now (I swear I h8 feeling guilty just for doing what I want to!)

-Quoting from Stephenie Meyer's Website :

We are excited to have the exclusive unveiling of Paramore's "Decode" — the official single from the Twilight OST:

Hayley Williams from Paramore is a huge Twilight fan and recently talked about her love of the books and the song's title:

"Twilight is the first series of books I've ever read. I didn't get into the Harry Potter series even though I love the movies. Twilight really caught my attention and held it. I'm really excited to see the book adapted to film and excited that our band gets to be a part of the phenomenon. I chose the title "Decode" because the song is about the building tension, awkwardness, anger and confusion between Bella and Edward. Bella's is the only mind Edward can't read and I feel like that's a big part of the first book and one of the obstacles for them to overcome. It's one added tension that makes the story even better." -- Hayley Williams, Paramore

Here the Lyrics, enjoy :3

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something that I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

Hello everybody! it's been almost a week since I last posted sth here (I avoided unworthy things XD) but now, on the Review Mode, I'm gonna summarize my week!!

Starting for the most recent happening:
The Extremoduro's Concert!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!

... little more to say XD I went with Sita (who came yesterday, specially for it (?)) and we had a great time. Ok, not at all XD my karma h8s me ^^U there was a boy before me jumping like crazy, and it had to happen: the stepped on my foot. Pain. I almost kill him ¬¬ but there were SOOOOO many people I just let it go, it was accidentally. So 3 ice cubes later (thanx Sita for helping me ^.^) re returned to our initial place in the concer (though a little further from the boy XD) and then the motherf*ckers made their great scene: fat, short, bulky skins started to kick everything in their way behaving like bulls ¬¬ I swear I h8 this people... luckily it was at the end of the concert, they must have been very drunk, because they spent more time on the ground than on foot.

After the concert, we had our clothes ruined XD mud everywhere, some stupid people threw beer above our heads, and humidity in the air made us look as if it'd been raining all the way.
We started walking to catch the same buses that brought us to Beniparrell, and after a long walk we did if finally. At 2 am we were safe, deadly tired, at home. David was almost asleep XDDDD my poor little thing... XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


This week I started classes again; I must say that were not because of the excitement of seeing my friends, I wouldn't have been so eager to get to this day XD because classes this year are HELL ^^U not as hell as last year, but very seem-like. And I have so much pressure this time, I have to do EVERYTHING right.
But I saw Sandra, and Krysia!!! after a year, I almost cried, I was so ashamed for having lost contact... but she didn't hold a grudge against me, it was as if nothing has happened, just 2 friends seeing themselves again after a while. I was SO HAPPY :_____3333


And Josue left abroad for a year on Monday. I have to say this is the saddest things of this week (which I already posted but nevermind)



Well, this is my chronicles so far. It's cold and raining, and Musa (my sister's kitten) it's lovely :33333 (I hope she eats soon my budgerigar)

I'll write something else soon ^^

Ps: because we haven't made plans and as Sita is staying at my home this weekend but already sleeping, and David is in Japanese class, I have nothing more to say for now.
Ps2: I had to clean EVERYTHING this morning!!!!!!!!! X___xU

Farewell...

It is very hard to say goodbye to a friend....






so I'll have to say SEE U SOON ^____^


Have a nice, wonderful and comfortable XD trip to Leicester tomorrow, my very best friend.


I'm gonna miss you A LOT; LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T^T a whole year!!!!!! *starts looking for flights to Leicester in holidays* XDDD~


Hope to hear from you asap (aka when you turn on your computer XDDDDD)


I'm sorry for not being able to go say bye to the airport (btw, when do you leave?? ^^UUU)


......
(feels stupid)






Pd: you don't know how HARD it will be not to see you tomorrow and think "another year laughing" :___333 already missing u...

Pd2: say sth, for G-d's sake XDD if nobody comments I'm invisible!!!!!!!!!!!!

bisexual or not?

I wonder If I'm bisexual or just obsessed with pretty girls... XDDDD



OK, that RANDOM post is just because I think too much stupid things when I have free time, and as this blog is read by the Phantom of the Opera, F u.



Now seriously, I dunno my sexual orientation.
*Don't panic people, there's nothing to panic on, only my beloved boyfriend can suffer an anxiety crisis, but unjustified, as I would explain now;
The thing is that I pretty much catch myself staring to pretty girls than boys. In fact, I DON'T stare at boys!! Before that turns out wrong-er XD let me clarify sth: this obsession started with my ED. I looked at the pretty, skinny and more beautiful girls than me as a mirror where I should be able to be reflected on someday. I wanted to be like this, pretty, like them. So I fixated my attention on every girl as an incentive to chase my purpose. What happened next? I'm still obsessed with it, so you can figure out.
But the question now is that I dunno if this obsession is a secondary effect of my ED or, if my ED is a secondary effect of my bisexualism (?) <- in brackets because I don't know if I'm bisexual XDDDD -



Only as a reference I want to tell you I've never wanted any girl sexually. No desire. None at all.
But this has happened before! I mean, I never wanted a boy before my boyfriend (OK, I was 16, I dunno how are girls now, but I was a bit shy and childish at the time, so I resigned to platonic love. Until him *.*). And I never wanted any other boy after him. Why? Well, I'm pretty satisfied =^^= and also, because I love him. And also, maybe, because I put too much attention on girls. Which was the central point of this whole situation.



So: Am I bisexual or not? Polemic post just to try to catch your attention and comments? Could be? Did it work? ;)



See you!!





Pd: Yesterday I enrolled in my 5th year of Filologia Inglesa. Wow (not WOW ¬¬U ha-ha)
Pd2: I REALLY love my boyfriend! Even if he doesn't comment anything here (though that deducts points....... just to let him know if he ever happens to read this ¬¬ did I say he just don't wanna read English?)
Pd3: I had to look it up because I didn't remember how it was said in English (lots of time without googling it XDDD) So ED=TCA

Yesterday

First things first:

I'm sorry. I love you. Forgive me.

***

Now about yesterday's class dinner.
I totally F*cked it. Sorry [JAC] because though I knew I wasn't OK I went and that gave you the night. I'm a depressing person, hell knows.

Other than that, it was fun the time I wasn't mourning and moping around. The place was nice, people were NOISY XD and food was OK (but my guts were closed, y'know, despair and self-consciousness...)

Thanks for staying by my side when I reached the bottom, I know it was pathetic to see, but I couldn't avoid it. You're my best friend.




I dunno what's gonna happen this afternoon, not even this midday, but I want to make up for all I've done wrong. I don't wanna think it's too late, I know you're a forgiving person, but you won't forget easily times like this, when I hurt you just because I go mad with myself.
As I dunno what to expect, I'll leave things be until we meet, and then we'll talk.
We have all the time in the world to work this out...


For you...

The Biggest Rajada Ever (2nd time)

Every time I see my LARGE suitcase I get jitters... Oh, hello! XDDD

Um... this post is just to tell you I've cancelled my erasmus.

... [JAC] already knows thanx to the email I sent him.
so,


I'm in serious troubles because of everything I've done until now (well, a week ago, but, back to reality, noway they were to answer my emails in time, were they?)
A week ago I woke up and started to cry (bipolar, you know, I can also become a murderous person in seconds, just don't laugh of you'll suffer like hell)
Because I wanted to go on erasmus as much as to have a stake across my chest. No Way.
And as I've never been a truly action girl, I started to think pros and cons about going (or not) and finally, cons about going won.
Once I make up my mind its extremely difficult for me to go backwards (excepts, that is, when I just let myself go influenced as with the erasmus thing...) so I settled the situation asap. I sent an email to Middlesex, and went to RI to expose my reasons for cancelling. I of course just half made up them.

Just to clear something up: Yes, I'm bipolar. Yes, I'm depressive, suicidal, and I used to do SI. And I've suffered from Anorexia. Still suffering its consequences.
So I have more than one reason (academics, that's it) not to go. Going alone and leaving the person that has given me happiness for first time in my life count as reasons? k, done.


Now I have my large suitcase I have to return (thanx CorteInglés for being you) and I fear a lot I'll have to pay my residence halls even if I don't go. Which means I'll have to lie like hell just to try to get off the situation... or else, not pay until they report me (to the Haya? ^^UUU who knows)



That's all I can tell until now, as soon as I have news I'll let you know, though I don't see too much activity around here, not even my boyfriend reads the posts dedicated to us, and such ¬¬



Kisses, I'm back to my studying routine (just one exam left!)



Countdown to London: Cancelled
Timetable:
Today meeting at UV 12 am with Sandra.
11/9/08 Intro Hª Lengua Inglesa.
15/9/08 Matrícula.



*EDIT* 9/9/08

I've my money refounded :D and my suitcase where it should be: FAR from me XDDDD
Also, today I received the email from Middlesex (Chris is a really good person, I must admit) where the coordinator tells me she'll do what she can to help me, and also wishes me to recover soon *.* Thanx!!!

cositas potitas

Hi my friends, this post will be written in Spanish! Buhhhh



cositashh potitashh *_* que hacen tu vida un lugar mejor el día de vuestro aniversario ^__^
6 años y 2 meses. 愛してるございます！！


Por ejemplo:

Un Edward Elric y Winry namuradisimos XDDDDDDD solo en fanfics y cosas semejantes (con cariiiño)


o...





Un Gourry super machoteee XDDD y una Lina super kawaiii *.* en una de las escenas el nuevo manga de Slayers, Slayers Revolutions.


Vale... con estos SI podéis hacer pairings, tipo linagourry (pero quedan prohibidísimos los NARUSASU!!!!!! Oís!? pervertidossssssssssssss ¬¬U Naruto es MIO! XDDDD)





Y todo esto porque.. estoy estresada con el exámen de mañana de Gramática inglesa, y tengo que seguir estudiando (vida perra)
Mañana actualizaré con una noticia que hará que se os caigan vuestros esquemas en la vida!! muahahahahaah (hará que me matéis por gilipollas ^^UUUU)

The IT Crowd - scenes seasson 1

ROTFLOL!! If you can watch this series, please, do it, because it's HILLARIOUS!!

The IT Crowd.
Moss fan! XDDD
Look it up on the wikipedia, or google it.


On the other hand, I support Stephenie Meyer against Midnight Sun Leak. FUCK OFF, YOU SPOILER RATS! How could you?! Stealing a manuscript, she's so dissapointed, we all are!






Yep, I should be studying... -o- but I'm trying! HARD! XDDD
See you!

Stupid post consecuence f stress....

... I felt whole

"Sorrow" - Flyleaf

Sometimes life seems too quiet
Into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark
Meant to make me strong

Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me

Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me
Sitting closer than my pain
He knew each tear before it came
Soon He will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

Sorrow last through this night
I'll take this piece of You
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As You flew right through me

And we kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that's halfway mine
The sword is slicing through the question
So I won't be fooled by his angel light

Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you
And hope for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole
As you flew right through me
And up into the stars

Joy will come

NOTA: yo soy ATEA. Pero me gusta el grupo. Me gustan las letras. Y las interpreto a MI manera. Ale, ya está. XD

Dress Try feat the exams thing (fear...)

Uff sashibure da nee! It's been a long time since I wrote something worth it in the blog XD I mean, yeah, the song was good but I'm definitely not gonna make this into a musical blog XDD The truth is that I've been so worried with all it's coming I didn't think of the blog. Sorry, you unattended, ungrateful readers ¬¬U
So, what have I been up to this days:
Studying XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD no, I meant it! really..... oh, well, not so.... -o-UUU *realization hits her like concrete rock* OMFG JUST A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies*
Also... I've read, a lot XD (now you know why I don't study....) -o-UUUU
And mostly I've been going thorough all the papers and things I'll need to have when I go to London. It's stressful, and also scary. The accident of the Spanair flight didn't scare me more of planes than I already was, but remind me of what I was gonna do. And then chills started and tears, and loss for all I leave here for 6 months... you know, it could sound pathetic, but I don't wanna lose him. Not for a moment. We've been living together for 2 years and a half and I cannot think of such a long period of time without him. I'm already missing him when I think about it.


The weather this days make me feel melancholic. Even if you hadn't looked at the calendar, you'd be able to tell by the weather that summer is ending. And it reminds me of my childhood days, when I knew the dream was ending... I don't know why I still feel the same, maybe now the feeling is stronger because I have a major change before me, but the thing is that I can't help but feel sad. I'm gonna leave behind the known, and it never mattered to me because I always thought I was going for something better. Now I feel so complete, I fear leaving this behind. Happiness is a curious thing, sometimes makes you clip your own wings... because you don't want to fly anywhere else.
(it would pass, for sure XDDDDD just wait for the erasmus parties! oh... did I tell you my university is in the ass of the world??)


Today is the "prueba del vestido" (JAC, how would you have translated it?!); that is, checking my suitcase is able to storage everything it's coming with me to London. Not an easy task, I may say. If my suitcase was a little bigger, I could hide David inside and bring him to London XDDDD So wish me luck, because later on I'll have to weight it to know if it's too heavy ^^UUUU


And I think I have nothing else to tell... my Emule is working very hard this days XD a TScreener of Batman The Dark Knight VO because I want to see it again and I have no money nor time to go to theatre; also David has been hocked up by Death Note (anime of course; he, reading? XDDD) and is extremely depressed after chapter 26 (none of us want the spoiler XD I was also depressed first time I saw it); and my mobile phone is now prepaid. Just in case.


So I'm looking for a partner to study with this last week and make slightly bearable this exams thing. Wish me luck, now I'm giving my best!!
See you!





Pd: I went to see the F1, but for the sake of my sanity I won't say anything else XDDDDD
Pd: at least! After a month or so, Detective Conan new manga!! (I was starting to suspect Gosho has died... or the subbers ¬¬U)

Never Enough

Life's been sucked out of me, and this routine's killing me
I did it to myself, again I said this would not be
Somebody put me out of my misery ...
Expression, stimulation, hollow sense of myself
I did it to myself again
Somebody put me in my place ...

Never enough, never enough
Do I deserve what I got?

Now everything's okay, there's nothing wrong with me
This seems unnatural to me I'd say in every way
Somebody kick me in the face ...
Now something's wrong with me, I'm bleeding profusely
And this seems natural to me I f*ck up everyday
Somebody put me in my place ...

Never enough, never enough
Do I deserve what I got?

Never enough, never enough
Do I deserve what I got?
What I got (x4)

I feel as if I'm running back to where I started
You ask what's wrong with me, and I say nothing
Is everything okay? Is something wrong with me?
Pushing and pulling feelings, eternal, my heart is yours
I feel as if I'm running, I feel as if I'm running, I feel as if I'm running
RUN!!!!!

Life ... will ... knock ... me ... down!!!!!

Never enough, never enough
Do I deserve what I got? Never enough, never enough
Life ... will ... knock ... me ... down!!!!!

PAPAROACH

Because we all break down sometimes...

Kindred Spirits

I still remember the first time I heard this expression, 'kindred spirits', referred to the special relationship a girl B kept with her best friend J. I immediately thought of you, as when sth touches my heart, cannot control feelings of gratitude and respect for what you do and who you are. You may think we don't know you, and might be true. BTW the few things I know of you keep me on your side whatever happens. Because I wasn't bluffing when I told you you were like the sun for me. We are so seem-like sometimes I cannot but think we were fated to meet. You don't know how important your friendship is for me, but you've been my only real friend in years. That's why I want to tell you this: please, don't give up on people. I know how it feels to be hurt, to feel betrayed, to think there's no hope, no one to trust. But there are. Though may not be the ones you want... life is a big maze.
Well, this video is for you. The comment on your blog will be posted soon, as soon as I find a good way to smash you verbally XDDDD

Lifeblood Colors

Pd: as you said avoid commenting on this, I've commented outside your blog :P hecha la ley, hecha la trampa XDDDD
Pd2: Yep.... I know about blood and all this bullshit you're gonna attack me with... don't really care XDDDD

Why So Serious?

Yesterday I saw one of the COOLEST films, really, in my life. Eager as I was to see it, it was better than I anticipated. And in VO! I was delighted *o* Darkest film EVER.

So, I went to see Batman The Dark Knight, with my friend Josué (aka JAC, not behaving as mr. J.Cricket for a day, wow! XDDDD punch in the guts? I don't think so) and I own him a favour, because if he hadn't invited me to join him, I'd have never gone to a VO. And I loved it! I mostly understood everything --except for Gordon... seriously, he spoke FAST X_x.

I have to say a few things (good and bad) about the film, though:
First, what was with the voice of Christian Bale when he dresses up as Batman? I mean... if he's not voiceless by now, wow, give a round of applause to his vocal cords. The most hoarse voice ever listened.

Second, Heath Ledger's deserves an Oscar. His voice fits amazingly the definition of Joker's; It's a craziness! I'm relieved I didn't get to see the dubbed one ¬¬U Also, I liked him most than Nicholson's performance. Maybe was the director, maybe Ledgers' own talent, maybe both together, that gave the film this feeling of darkness, despair, madness, that gave life to a Joker less clownish and most serious, tormented, sick. It gave you chills just to think of his motivations. Genius. You weren't exaggerating when you told me the director was GREAT, but also have to admit the Joker's character seemed to have been made for Heath Ledger. RIP.

Third, mmmm how can I put this... lemme think. Ok, I gott'it: I didn't like Maggie Gyllenhaal's performance as Rachel. To put it bluntly. XD




I'm not really on the review thing, but I can say it's worth it to get to see it. Even for those of you who think that Jack Nicholson's Joker performance was impossible to surpass. Seriously guys, trailer is NOTHING compared to the film. But, please, be aware of dubbers, it may disappoint you. It's a shame i you dunno enough English to watch the film without having to read every subtitle, but were that the case, at least see the trailer and fill yourselves with the amazing voice of the Joker (and allucinate little cucumbers with Batman's... O.o)


Now, for tonight's entertainment (oh, I loved this XD) I'm posting several videos. One of them is a spoof of the original trailer, which in case you haven't seen it YET XD I'll post afterwards. And a video so you could compare Jack Nicholson's Joker Vs. Heath Ledger's. ENJOY, ladies and gentlemen.

The Dark Knight Trailer Spoof


The Dark Knight Original Trailer



Joker vs Joker (Jack Nicholson vs Heath Ledger)



Oh! and as a personal pun XD here I leave my fav



The Dark Knight- Joker Interrogation Scene Spoof!!! XDDDDDD