Hello everybody! it's been almost a week since I last posted sth here (I avoided unworthy things XD) but now, on the Review Mode, I'm gonna summarize my week!!

Starting for the most recent happening:
The Extremoduro's Concert!!!
AWESOME!!!!!!

... little more to say XD I went with Sita (who came yesterday, specially for it (?)) and we had a great time. Ok, not at all XD my karma h8s me ^^U there was a boy before me jumping like crazy, and it had to happen: the stepped on my foot. Pain. I almost kill him ¬¬ but there were SOOOOO many people I just let it go, it was accidentally. So 3 ice cubes later (thanx Sita for helping me ^.^) re returned to our initial place in the concer (though a little further from the boy XD) and then the motherf*ckers made their great scene: fat, short, bulky skins started to kick everything in their way behaving like bulls ¬¬ I swear I h8 this people... luckily it was at the end of the concert, they must have been very drunk, because they spent more time on the ground than on foot.

After the concert, we had our clothes ruined XD mud everywhere, some stupid people threw beer above our heads, and humidity in the air made us look as if it'd been raining all the way.
We started walking to catch the same buses that brought us to Beniparrell, and after a long walk we did if finally. At 2 am we were safe, deadly tired, at home. David was almost asleep XDDDD my poor little thing... XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


This week I started classes again; I must say that were not because of the excitement of seeing my friends, I wouldn't have been so eager to get to this day XD because classes this year are HELL ^^U not as hell as last year, but very seem-like. And I have so much pressure this time, I have to do EVERYTHING right.
But I saw Sandra, and Krysia!!! after a year, I almost cried, I was so ashamed for having lost contact... but she didn't hold a grudge against me, it was as if nothing has happened, just 2 friends seeing themselves again after a while. I was SO HAPPY :_____3333


And Josue left abroad for a year on Monday. I have to say this is the saddest things of this week (which I already posted but nevermind)



Well, this is my chronicles so far. It's cold and raining, and Musa (my sister's kitten) it's lovely :33333 (I hope she eats soon my budgerigar)

I'll write something else soon ^^

Ps: because we haven't made plans and as Sita is staying at my home this weekend but already sleeping, and David is in Japanese class, I have nothing more to say for now.
Ps2: I had to clean EVERYTHING this morning!!!!!!!!! X___xU

Farewell...

It is very hard to say goodbye to a friend....






so I'll have to say SEE U SOON ^____^


Have a nice, wonderful and comfortable XD trip to Leicester tomorrow, my very best friend.


I'm gonna miss you A LOT; LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T^T a whole year!!!!!! *starts looking for flights to Leicester in holidays* XDDD~


Hope to hear from you asap (aka when you turn on your computer XDDDDD)


I'm sorry for not being able to go say bye to the airport (btw, when do you leave?? ^^UUU)


......
(feels stupid)






Pd: you don't know how HARD it will be not to see you tomorrow and think "another year laughing" :___333 already missing u...

Pd2: say sth, for G-d's sake XDD if nobody comments I'm invisible!!!!!!!!!!!!

bisexual or not?

I wonder If I'm bisexual or just obsessed with pretty girls... XDDDD



OK, that RANDOM post is just because I think too much stupid things when I have free time, and as this blog is read by the Phantom of the Opera, F u.



Now seriously, I dunno my sexual orientation.
*Don't panic people, there's nothing to panic on, only my beloved boyfriend can suffer an anxiety crisis, but unjustified, as I would explain now;
The thing is that I pretty much catch myself staring to pretty girls than boys. In fact, I DON'T stare at boys!! Before that turns out wrong-er XD let me clarify sth: this obsession started with my ED. I looked at the pretty, skinny and more beautiful girls than me as a mirror where I should be able to be reflected on someday. I wanted to be like this, pretty, like them. So I fixated my attention on every girl as an incentive to chase my purpose. What happened next? I'm still obsessed with it, so you can figure out.
But the question now is that I dunno if this obsession is a secondary effect of my ED or, if my ED is a secondary effect of my bisexualism (?) <- in brackets because I don't know if I'm bisexual XDDDD -



Only as a reference I want to tell you I've never wanted any girl sexually. No desire. None at all.
But this has happened before! I mean, I never wanted a boy before my boyfriend (OK, I was 16, I dunno how are girls now, but I was a bit shy and childish at the time, so I resigned to platonic love. Until him *.*). And I never wanted any other boy after him. Why? Well, I'm pretty satisfied =^^= and also, because I love him. And also, maybe, because I put too much attention on girls. Which was the central point of this whole situation.



So: Am I bisexual or not? Polemic post just to try to catch your attention and comments? Could be? Did it work? ;)



See you!!





Pd: Yesterday I enrolled in my 5th year of Filologia Inglesa. Wow (not WOW ¬¬U ha-ha)
Pd2: I REALLY love my boyfriend! Even if he doesn't comment anything here (though that deducts points....... just to let him know if he ever happens to read this ¬¬ did I say he just don't wanna read English?)
Pd3: I had to look it up because I didn't remember how it was said in English (lots of time without googling it XDDD) So ED=TCA

Yesterday

First things first:

I'm sorry. I love you. Forgive me.

***

Now about yesterday's class dinner.
I totally F*cked it. Sorry [JAC] because though I knew I wasn't OK I went and that gave you the night. I'm a depressing person, hell knows.

Other than that, it was fun the time I wasn't mourning and moping around. The place was nice, people were NOISY XD and food was OK (but my guts were closed, y'know, despair and self-consciousness...)

Thanks for staying by my side when I reached the bottom, I know it was pathetic to see, but I couldn't avoid it. You're my best friend.




I dunno what's gonna happen this afternoon, not even this midday, but I want to make up for all I've done wrong. I don't wanna think it's too late, I know you're a forgiving person, but you won't forget easily times like this, when I hurt you just because I go mad with myself.
As I dunno what to expect, I'll leave things be until we meet, and then we'll talk.
We have all the time in the world to work this out...


For you...

The Biggest Rajada Ever (2nd time)

Every time I see my LARGE suitcase I get jitters... Oh, hello! XDDD

Um... this post is just to tell you I've cancelled my erasmus.

... [JAC] already knows thanx to the email I sent him.
so,


I'm in serious troubles because of everything I've done until now (well, a week ago, but, back to reality, noway they were to answer my emails in time, were they?)
A week ago I woke up and started to cry (bipolar, you know, I can also become a murderous person in seconds, just don't laugh of you'll suffer like hell)
Because I wanted to go on erasmus as much as to have a stake across my chest. No Way.
And as I've never been a truly action girl, I started to think pros and cons about going (or not) and finally, cons about going won.
Once I make up my mind its extremely difficult for me to go backwards (excepts, that is, when I just let myself go influenced as with the erasmus thing...) so I settled the situation asap. I sent an email to Middlesex, and went to RI to expose my reasons for cancelling. I of course just half made up them.

Just to clear something up: Yes, I'm bipolar. Yes, I'm depressive, suicidal, and I used to do SI. And I've suffered from Anorexia. Still suffering its consequences.
So I have more than one reason (academics, that's it) not to go. Going alone and leaving the person that has given me happiness for first time in my life count as reasons? k, done.


Now I have my large suitcase I have to return (thanx CorteInglés for being you) and I fear a lot I'll have to pay my residence halls even if I don't go. Which means I'll have to lie like hell just to try to get off the situation... or else, not pay until they report me (to the Haya? ^^UUU who knows)



That's all I can tell until now, as soon as I have news I'll let you know, though I don't see too much activity around here, not even my boyfriend reads the posts dedicated to us, and such ¬¬



Kisses, I'm back to my studying routine (just one exam left!)



Countdown to London: Cancelled
Timetable:
Today meeting at UV 12 am with Sandra.
11/9/08 Intro Hª Lengua Inglesa.
15/9/08 Matrícula.



*EDIT* 9/9/08

I've my money refounded :D and my suitcase where it should be: FAR from me XDDDD
Also, today I received the email from Middlesex (Chris is a really good person, I must admit) where the coordinator tells me she'll do what she can to help me, and also wishes me to recover soon *.* Thanx!!!

cositas potitas

Hi my friends, this post will be written in Spanish! Buhhhh



cositashh potitashh *_* que hacen tu vida un lugar mejor el día de vuestro aniversario ^__^
6 años y 2 meses. 愛してるございます！！


Por ejemplo:

Un Edward Elric y Winry namuradisimos XDDDDDDD solo en fanfics y cosas semejantes (con cariiiño)


o...





Un Gourry super machoteee XDDD y una Lina super kawaiii *.* en una de las escenas el nuevo manga de Slayers, Slayers Revolutions.


Vale... con estos SI podéis hacer pairings, tipo linagourry (pero quedan prohibidísimos los NARUSASU!!!!!! Oís!? pervertidossssssssssssss ¬¬U Naruto es MIO! XDDDD)





Y todo esto porque.. estoy estresada con el exámen de mañana de Gramática inglesa, y tengo que seguir estudiando (vida perra)
Mañana actualizaré con una noticia que hará que se os caigan vuestros esquemas en la vida!! muahahahahaah (hará que me matéis por gilipollas ^^UUUU)