Every time I see my LARGE suitcase I get jitters... Oh, hello! XDDD
Um... this post is just to tell you I've cancelled my erasmus.
... [JAC] already knows thanx to the email I sent him.
so,
I'm in serious troubles because of everything I've done until now (well, a week ago, but, back to reality, noway they were to answer my emails in time, were they?)
A week ago I woke up and started to cry (bipolar, you know, I can also become a murderous person in seconds, just don't laugh of you'll suffer like hell)
Because I wanted to go on erasmus as much as to have a stake across my chest. No Way.
And as I've never been a truly action girl, I started to think pros and cons about going (or not) and finally, cons about going won.
Once I make up my mind its extremely difficult for me to go backwards (excepts, that is, when I just let myself go influenced as with the erasmus thing...) so I settled the situation asap. I sent an email to Middlesex, and went to RI to expose my reasons for cancelling. I of course just half made up them.
Just to clear something up: Yes, I'm bipolar. Yes, I'm depressive, suicidal, and I used to do SI. And I've suffered from Anorexia. Still suffering its consequences.
So I have more than one reason (academics, that's it) not to go. Going alone and leaving the person that has given me happiness for first time in my life count as reasons? k, done.
Now I have my large suitcase I have to return (thanx CorteInglés for being you) and I fear a lot I'll have to pay my residence halls even if I don't go. Which means I'll have to lie like hell just to try to get off the situation... or else, not pay until they report me (to the Haya? ^^UUU who knows)
That's all I can tell until now, as soon as I have news I'll let you know, though I don't see too much activity around here, not even my boyfriend reads the posts dedicated to us, and such ¬¬
Kisses, I'm back to my studying routine (just one exam left!)
Countdown to London: Cancelled
Timetable:
Today meeting at UV 12 am with Sandra.
11/9/08 Intro Hª Lengua Inglesa.
15/9/08 Matrícula.
*EDIT* 9/9/08
I've my money refounded :D and my suitcase where it should be: FAR from me XDDDD
Also, today I received the email from Middlesex (Chris is a really good person, I must admit) where the coordinator tells me she'll do what she can to help me, and also wishes me to recover soon *.* Thanx!!!
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2 comments:
I'm sure everything will work out in the end.
"Don’t give up; it’s not the end.
There’s hope for every fallen man,
To pick themselves up when they think they can
Because with every passing second comes a second chance.
(...)
Take a good look at yourself and know,
You’ve got yourself a ways to go,
But difficult is not impossible.
You can take back all the lost control.
Take a good look at yourself and see,
That you’ll emerge eventually;
As long as your heart’s not too far gone
From the only thing that can save you from yourself.
Forgiveness can be given when you think it can,
Because with every passing second comes a second chance."
=]
Thank you so much ^_^ that means a lot to me, really.
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